Though I don't have any tales to really regale myself with, there is one thing that came up. For some reason, A-'s count for less than A's. That means that my GPA is only 3.880 instead of a 4.0. And for some horribly dreadful reason there are no A+'s to bring up my GPA. I believe this should count as an epic fail on behalf of the University which I attend.
I think I will enhance this blog with stories of my life as well, especially since my life is part of my college life.
I have been at home now for almost a month and the strain of my home life has started to become too much and my family is once more falling apart. My mother takes her past life out on me and tells me things such as how horrible I am, full of bullshit, liar, selfish, etc. I think my point was made. And, best of all, she expects me to sit there and listen to her tell me how disgusting I am without allowing me to respond or take any action. Then my stepfather adds to the mix by screaming at me to do my duties and clean their home and make them dinner, and let my mother rest since she has had such a hard day at work. Did I mention that her job is basically pencil pushing? And he's disabled and stays at home all the time, sitting around finding things that I do that are wrong. To add to the mix, his 40ish year old son is staying here because his wife was cheating on him and he wanted to escape.
As this mix of wonderfullness boils down I have to stay here and play maid. I suppose I could leave since I am over eighteen, but where would I go? I could go to my brother and father's, but that would involve leaving my bird here with them...not going to happen since my bird is bonded to me, even though my mother keeps trying to steal him away. Why did I have to be born such an animal lover? No one else I know is so empathetic towards animals. Yes, I'm a vegetarian, and I can't even identify why. It's just that every time I eat animal/fish flesh, my entire soul seems to recoil. I even find spiders cute. What a deplorable way to be in this modern world.
Anyway, as the problems at home threaten to explode I cross my fingers and I hope that I make it back to college before anything worse happens. A few days ago I even tried to party away my problems. I should have known that wouldn't work because my problems were still there the next day. Now I'm dieting away my problems because that takes my mind off of life here. Even though I ruined my diet a bit by going to the cheesecake factory tonight with my friends and eating a slice of cheesecake and a mocha espresso drink...oi vey. I suppose that a six-mile fast walk with my father will get some fat and anger out.
But there are bigger problem in this world than my stupid family issues. Maybe if I tried to solve some of the world's problems I could escape my own? Somehow I feel that I am incompetent for that job, but I can always try! Wow, what a fresh idea! A college student trying to save the world! But I'm not going to do it the way every other person in the world seems to want to! I'm not going to support bogus political candidates and policies and parade around acting like fake problems have real solutions (cough, cough, global warming). Who knows what I can do, perhaps for now just being alive is enough...I'll have to wait and see I suppose. Any solutions non-readers?
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